his now eating which is a bonus. but taking him out today every 1 saw how bad he is getting am putting on a brave face and shutters up 99% of ppl say am doing a fantastic job and that am so brave i dont see my self as brave am just doing what any 1 else would do for there family and the other 1% can go fourth and multiply am doing my best for him that i can they dont seem to understand that there is no magic medicene his going to get worse no matter how hard i try to keep him going he has to fight him self but he dosent want to his giving up and i know its hard to accept but i have to his in pain his struggling with every thing his fought for so long its his decission if his had enough am proud of him for fighting for this long all i can do is care for him and support him as best i can am no superman but i will be strong for as long as i can even tho i still want to sit in a corner and cry and rock
