feeling let down

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why do people say "if theres anything i can do just ask" ....then when you do ...they wont !!!!!!!!!!!

most people over the last 8months when weve asked for help ...lift to hospital ..lending us bed ,bedding etc etc ...most people i think everyone up to now have done what we have asked and have helped ...maybe weve been lucky? till now

my daughter-in-law is really down ...i know its a bad time (hell no!!!!? you dont say)

paul had scan yesterday and results next weeek ....so yes we are all waiting again ...for...whats next

helen has already said to me she doesnt think she can handle anything else - i know she will because we do dont we ...but ...i do know she is feeling really bad

apart from the fact that paul is ill and hasnt worked since feb (tho his dad is workin for him ) and here in spain the "income support" is crap!!!! so they are struggling to pay for everthing .....so now on top of health worries helen is also worrying about finances .....well xmas looming and all....

well i had this bright idea ....seeing as my daughter and other son are due to run an half marathon and theyve always said they were doing it for paul ..... my daughter recently posted on fb that she would soon be nattering everyone for sponsers

i emailed her (was a bit hessitant to do so) to suggest they both run for paul and helen .......well what a response i got off them both

my daughter rather sharpish said she could do a "fund raising" but not sponser and she couldnt ask people who didnt know paul and those that did she would feel cheeky ....or words to that effect ...and would paul and helen be offended??? blah blah !!! i just said oh forget it ,it was only an idea ....then my son emailed to say no he wasnt getting sponsered and paul would def not want that ????? why has he asked him ? oh well maybe he has .....it just pissed me right off because when he was in financial trouble with his business at the start of the credit crunch ...who did he come to for help ...yes mum n dad! i wonder now if i should have said no ...you are well go get another job!!!!!

is it me ???

i would like to say that my kids are very loving and think the world of each other i just dont understand this at all .... my daughter would rather raise money for strangers than help out her own brother ? why ...how could she? i am really really upset

on a more positive note after i told my hubby he said one of the bar-owners who knows paul is organising a "charity do" to raise some money for him ......so that cheered me up and i know paul and helen will be thrilled and touched by his kindness ...... now i am wondering what his brother and sister will think about this when they hear others could do what they couldnt ????

sh*t sh*t sh*t ....... thats just how i feel

im sorry ive moaned on ...i did try and go into chat ...i wouldve moaned at whoever was there ...but ...i couldnt get in !!!

 

 

 

 

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    i agree with all of the above... this is sooooo hard for you all everyone reacts different to this cr@p called cancer i also unerstand your son and daughter ... if i can explain what i mean..... collecting for strangers feels like your doing something good .....collecting for your own family (in MY opinion)... would not only feel like i`m begging .... but also that i`m letting them down cos i cant help...... this might sound strange to you ... but i would hate my family going aruond trying to get monry for me... i know i am lucky its me has cancer not my hubby who is still able to work and keep a roof over our heads.... and i dont know how we would cope financially if it were reversed ... but still ....i know how i would feel.

    anger is part of this hell that we are all going through and it can rip family`s apart.... dont let it make your family a casualty......liz xoxoxo

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Cancer not only effects the patient but everyone who comes in contact with it. As we are all individuals we all react differently to the situation .Thats why it is so difficult to understand peoples motives and responces. Thats why sites like this are so important because we do know how you feel because we have probably been through it ourselves or something similar.So keep posting knowing that we are here for you and a shoulder to lean on. Love Jonnie

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    thanx to you all xXxXx I know everything you say is true .....my other self tells me this too

    i have a wonderful family ALL of them they do care and love each other ....... thats why i had to get off my chest how i felt i cant be mad with them

    i know its the results thats the main worry

    hells bells you never know they may say ....hey come back in 6months your hunkey dorey now ..... go get back to fully ftness and get back to work

    ........ go training get ready for the london marathon next year ....... how i wish to hear him say this

    sorry guys i know this is the kinda thing you all wish to hear for yourselves too

    im just gonna dig deep n find a bit more inner strength i know its lurking there somewhere

    im gonna practice what i preach to others LIVESTRONG  (ok so we wobble a bit along the way)

    ........thanx tweets for reminding me .....and stop bolting the door on chat ...lol !!!

    come here you lot n let me hug you all (((((HUG)))))

    xNx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hey honey.....HUGE MASSIVE HUG XXXXXX to you.

    Think some times that sibling feel that if they start 'doing stuff' that's related to the CANCEr then it reinforces that their brother is ACTUALLY ill. It's not that they don't want to help....but you asking them to do sometghing they thought their brother could do, but isn't now capable of doing reaffirms this sh*t illness.

    Oh honey, you have such a lot to deal with, and as mum, you get to have the emotional burden...for one and all.

    Stay strong and moan and rant and rave to us all, we know how you feel.

    Much love to you.

    PEABS XXXX