had more bad news last week. The Liver surgeon thinks I am inoperable, leaving me with only one other potential option, if I am a viable candidate, which is SIRT. I have asked for a second opinion from Dr Rees in Basingstoke and have to have an MRI to see what he thinks. Seeing the oncology team at the Hammersmith who deal with SIRT on the 4th.
Haven't told mum yet. My cousins and some friends know. This is just getting so hard. Thinking I may not even see my 30th birthday is just so scary. Had plans to hit Vegas with some friends and none of it seems possible right now. Have cancelled my Jan ski trip, too much yet too little going on all at the same time.
I'm hitting a wall right now. Don't know how to stay positive anymore. Just can't seem to stop crying when I'm alone. I just want to be better.
