Happy Christmas

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A sunny December day was given over to cloud cover as I left the outpatients department with my "life changing news".  Some vague but persistent symptoms, some scans, the course of a few weeks and a label called cancer and there you go life changed.

 Dark brown eyes, bright blue eyes, smokey grey eyes and beautiful cat-like green eyes all showed the same fear when I told them.

"Any questions" the handsome doctor said (I was in shock but not blind)

Only how long have I got and what will it be like?  I thought  "No" my mouth said.  

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi BB,

    In the short term, your mouth said the right thing ! Gives you time to get your head around a few things, time to prepare yourself for the answers to the questions your mind wanted to ask.

    I'm 58, and about 2 years further down the road than where you seem to be. It's been a bit of a bumpy ride - and it ain't over yet ! - but I've been determined to wring as much Happiness as I can, out of each day.

    I've found it extremely useful to prepare myself for the 'worst case scenario' - not easy, but well worth the effort, imho - because anything less is a bonus !

    Your imagination will play quite a large part in this, in the absence of Knowledge and Understanding, and mine tried all sorts of things, in an effort to freak me out ! But when I realised that it's MY imagination, things became a little easier. I imagined climbing a mountain. I knew it wouldn't be easy, there would be times when I would look up at how much further I had to go, and often felt like giving up. My determination - stubbornness ? - kept me going and all the effort was worthwhile - the view from the top is awesome !

    My most comforting thought has been 'TIASWO' - There Is Always Someone Worse Off.

    Cancer may have shortened my Life, but I'm buggered if I'm handing what's left of it over,on a plate !

    I wish you all the best, BB, in the days, months and years ahead.

    Ian x