Yesterday I went for my planning appointment for radiotherapy. What an ordeal. My husband said he would take me for planning appointment but cannot take me for the treatment. I found it all very traumatic. Hospital is miles away - and it was more sitting and waiting around. Very little information seems to have been held in my mind. Eventually after CT scan and tatoos I was given a list of 46 appointments. Some morning, some afternoon, some physio, some oncologist appointments. Because I have breast cancer on both sides I have two appointments daily for the radiotherapy.
Came home in tears - do not know how I can cope. My husband has told me I am ungrateful - well that just makes me cry even more. I am not ungrateful I am just scared and feeling lost once again.
People have offered their services to take me on the odd occasion if they are available - but it is so far away and the number of apppointments - somedays I have three - it just all seems wrong and unfair that they would have to put up with me crying and being upset. And as husband refusing to take me I had no alternative but to opt for the hospital transport.
I know I should be positive and should be not so ungrateful - please give me a shove in the right direction!
Thanks
Maralyn
