Im here in the kitchen staring at this screen. harassing google with all the new words which have cropped up today.
After calling the hospital as my lovely man was too ill to talk yesterday and i havent recieved any texts from him today i was told his tumours are breaking down too fast. apparently theres problems. apparently the nurse couldnt tell me via the phone call i had made. so here i am waiting for them to call me back so they can confirm i am indeed Trevs partner and not some loon pretending.
im so scared.
my heart is beeping all over the place and my poor kids want mums attention and ive had to ask them to leave me be.
10 mins and still no call.
Ive found tumour lysis syndrome. which im assuming (read...jumping to conclusions) that it must be. some sites say its normal for burkitts lymphoma to end up with lysis.
i just wish theyd phone. i have to collect a friends child from school in about 20 mins, i so want to know whats happening before i leave the phones here.
so want to go to trevs room and hold his hand.
this is too scary. wish they would just hurry up and phone.
