Hi Everyone,
So I haven't written on here for a while. To be honest I haven't written anywhere, I haven't thought and I haven't felt. It feels weird and slightly stilted coming back here and trying to be honest with myself because I've been doing a really good job of shutting everything off. I want to talk about several things today, to see if can just get back in touch with myself, and with all of you.…
Evening All,
For me I have to say that the hardest part of this whole shitty journey is the fact that nearly three months later I am still completely confounded by the whole thing. I am suspended in this foggy painful disbelief that makes moving on completely impossible. It sounds normal doesn’t it – ‘oh, she’s in shock poor dear how could she comprehend such an awful thing’ but it feels different in reality, not nearly…
Hello,
I am sitting in bed, at 4.15am and I am not the remotest bit sleepy and my heart won’t stop pumping in over-drive so I think that I’ll write in here for a while. I hope it calms me, I am not even sure what I am exactly stressed about – all I know is that right this instant nothing will distract my brain or calm me so I thought I would just run with it. Like if you’re riding a horse that is chomping at the bit…
Evening all,
I think that is it fair to say that life is hard at the moment. When someone you love dies it’s like you’ve been left with a huge crack down the centre of your body and being. I know that it will be different for everyone but for me my father was responsible for creating the world I lived in all my life, I have never known a life without him. He wasn’t the sort of dad who you loved but didn’t really respect…
Hi everyone,
I know that listening to other people's dreams is a total drag - "I had such weird dreams last night" is a comment that stirs an internal sigh, especially when announced in the morning, pre-caffeine. You ask politely, then they go on to ramble about the fact that a their favourite pair of converse turned into the Lord of the Horses that had hair like Margaret Thatcher which was obviously her old Maths teacher…
