My Mum was diagnosed with mesothelioma in November and she's been very depressed since. She's now had three rounds of chemotherapy and got the results of her CT scan yesterday. The doctor was very hurried and left her feeling a bit abandoned as he said they weren't going to give her any more chemo as her reaction to it was so bad, the tumour is 'stable' but no more, and there is more fluid on her lung. She's going back in 3 or 4 weeks… I feel like we don't know what to expect next. I think her cancer is quite advanced, and she doesn't think she'll make it to my brother's wedding at the beginning of April (because it's a long distance to travel). She isn't one of these fighters and survivors, she doesn't think she's going to feel any better than she does now. I'm hoping that after the chemo drugs are out of her system she will start to feel less nauseous and more able to eat and drink properly. Her Mum died of lung cancer in June (not mesothelioma) and all she keeps thinking about is any similarities between her experiences and my Nan's. A Macmillan nurse has been round to support her, and this helps for a day or so but then the negativity creeps back in. I have two young sons who love their Nanny very much, and me and my brother aren't ready for Mum to die (we lost our Grandad earlier this month and our other Grandma died three weeks before our Nan). I wouldn't be holding things together at all if it wasn't for having to stay on top of things for my children...
