I thought I would not write again until my mums first chemo session but when I sat down at my computer today I was compelled.
Since she had the 'small operation' on friday to put in the stent, she has been in such agony which i find horrifying to see. Yesterday she was ok most of the day but in the evening had a period of horrendous pain. ... apparently the doctors found the operation a little tricky and had to fiddle around a lot. With her lung biopsy and this operation she is finding it very difficult to be comfortable.
This morning when everyone else went into work I went to sleep in her bedroom. In every breath she took you could hear her agony and she was sick numerous times. I don't think i have ever felt so useless.
In my head I know that she will get over these operations and be strong again, yet because of her diagnosis any bit of pain she undergoes possesses a deeper poignancy.
