Over the past weeks I have gone from being very business like to feeling unbearable pain but for the past two days I have felt empty. It's like I can't feel, does that make sense? It's almost like an out of body experience, I'm standing on the outside looking in.
I have tried to motivate myself to do something, anything, but I just can't be bothered! I have no concentration, feel flat and I don't care about anything, even though I'm trying to appear ok to people around me. Why can I not feel? Anger? Hurt? Pain? Sadness? I feel nothing! It's like I've become detached from reality.
Is this a normal part of the grief process? I don't even think I've accepted that mum's gone. I know she's gone, I watched her go but I just can't accept it. She lived with me for 20 years. We were best friends and I just can't see my life without her in it. I don't feel sad or angry I just feel empty!
