Here I am again in panice mode! Back to work tomorrow and mums legs, and arms, seem to have got really weak in the last few days. She is also sore from her fall on Friday night.
This morning mum came into my room and woke me up at around 8.30am, once I'm asleep I hear nothing! She was soaking with sweat and asked if I could come and help her get dressed. It turned out she'd been trying to get out of bed for 30 minutes. She had been shouting on me and I hadn't heard her, some carer!!! Each time she tried to get up her arms wouldn't push and she kept falling back onto the bed. She had eventually got herself sitting but it had then taken her ages to stand up, the bed is pretty low. She was so upset and I feel so guilty that I didn't even hear her shouting on me to help her!
We are pretty sure it's the steroids that are causing this and she is hoping to be off them within the next 3 weeks as they are being reduced every 10 days but she seems to be getting progessively weaker so quickly that I am really worried about leaving her alone. Gillian, my friend from next door who mum thinks of more like a daughter, is at home tomorrow so I know she will keep an eye but after that mum will be on her own from about 7.30am until 4pm. I think I'll ask Christine, mums nurse, if she can visit mum and just see what she thinks. The problem is I'm not sure there is anything that can be done. My nerves are shattered and I know mum is really scared, she's already told me I'll have to get her up before I leave for work in the morning. My boss has been so good during mums treatment etc. that I can't possibly stay at home. People also don't undertand that even though she is NED she is still ill! Thanks for reading my rant! XX
