I did it!! I had my radiotherapy and the scan afterwards!!
I felt sick with nerves all morning as my treatment wasn't until this afternoon. I went on my own on the train yesterday, but I gave in today and asked my mum to go with me. It did help to keep my mind off things and kept the sickness at bay.
We had to wait around for my timeslot as they were running late, which made my nerves worse. But it gave me time to take some more painkillers. Then I got called. It was the same nurses as yesterday and they asked how I was feeling. I said sick already, so one went to get a bowl, just in case.
They were great though. Lined me up really quickly, and did the radiotherapy. I shut my eyes and imagined I was on a warm beach. Helped loads (or the painkillers made me high as a kite!!). Then once that was over someone rushed in and changed machines. Kept talking and telling me it's nearly over, just a really quick scan. Then she ran out again and the scan started. They put some music on and I shut my eyes again. I couldn't tell you what the music was but it covered up the noise of the scanner a bit.
So I did it. Radiotherapy and scan. Got to do that again for another 2 days and then it's just the radiotherapy after that. Still have a sick feeling and can't face eating yet, but I'm better than yesterday. and tomorrow will be better than today. Got a morning appointment tomorrow and Mum's coming with me again so not so long to worry about it.
Thanks for all the comments everyone. The support really helps. Just knowing I'm not ranting on to myself but there are others out there that have been there and done that REALLY helps.
