my lovely mum...

My lovely mum lost her fight in the early hours of the 27th jan, i was with her as was my aunt and my eldest daughter, not that she wanted to be there..we never thought that she would go that night, but i think she had, had enough and was tired, i feel lost... there is so much to be done...how do we get on with everthing...this is mums life...and what do we do with it ....its so hard...mum would have been 70 years old on the 8th of feb, So we have arranged to have her funeral on that day, so we can celebrate her life

I hope she knows what we are doing i am sure she will i just want to be able to not have that sadness on her birthday every year so its just one sad and happy day every year.... i dont know if that makes sense.. it does to me at the moment time will tell eh..

Mum was in no pain and was very settled and just seemed to sleep away,that gives me some comfort and the fact that i was able to spend the last 3 weeks at mums caring for her was a pleasure to be able to do for her and would have not had it any other way, to say i will miss her deeply is an under statement, i was at mums most days of the week i dont know how i will spend my days, she was not just my mum but my best friend.. what do i do without her ...??

all i can say is god bless mum and i will miss you so much i dont have the words to say..

i love you mum xxx