well i'm sat here with only 14.5 hours to go till i finally go in for my mastectomy. These last 3 weeks have felt endless but i've had some amazing support from my friends in fact i've had a better social life in the last couple of months that i had for years . I found out that i have a lot more people who care about me than i ever thought and it's great , so many of them offering support and help, its going to be strange for me to ask for help as i've lived alone for many years and got used to doing things for myself i also don't want to be a bother as i know people have their own lives to lead but i will ask and accept any help gratefully.
one thing i've learnt so far on this journey is the value of friendship , families are supposed to support you but true friends do it willing where as i've found families are completely lacking .but that could just be me
i'm packed and ready for tomorrow, i'm going out tonight with friends but no alcohol!! and i'm not sure how well i'll sleep tonight , i may be pottering around till late after all i'll get a good sleep tomorrow. At least i'll be one step closer to getting back to me but i think it will be a very different me
