the journey

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my amazing dad has been battling cancer for nearly 2 years now(wish i had found this site then)i thought i would write a diary /blog of how his treatment is going. it all began back in april 2009 when a urine infection showed up a tumour on his right kidney.he was whisked in to hospital to have the kidney removed within a week and the op was a success.he felt great after the op and back to normal within days so it came as a great shock to us all at his 3 month check up that the cancer had returned.they found small nodules on his lungs and tumours in the bone(hip and bottom of back) by the start of october dad had been given the cancer drug sutent.the side effects he felt made him lose weight all his hair went snowy white,had no taste for food and nausea. the nausea was controlled with different drugs.one of the good things about this treatment was you got a 2 week break in each cycle so on his 2 weeks off his appetite returned and he started to feel better. the sutent meds kept him ticking away for 14 months.we got the news end of nov begining of dec 2010 that a tumour in the spine had grown from 7cm to 18cm so the sutent was not keeping the cancer at bay so he was removed from it. this came as a huge blow to mum,dad myself and brother as who knew what the next step would be. he suffered with pains in his legs and a scan showed a non malignant tumour compressing the spine making the legs painful so he had 2 lots of radiotherapy which def helped and shrunk the tumour.dad was told of a new drug that they wanted him to trial.sadly he was not suitable for the trial due to blood counts etc but was told there was a fairly new cancer drug called everolimus(afinitor) they wanted him to try. this however would need funding.the price was very high but like the sutent(which needed funding we were optomistic.the news back 2 weeks later was no PCT had turned us down but dads consultant had applied to another company and they said yes.dad has been on the new treatment 10 days now.the main side effect of this is such a sore swollen mouth with ulcers which stops his ability to eat and drink.he does seem quite out of it at the moment so we are contacting mcmillan nurses and his cancer nurse.

7th march 2011

dad has been admitted to hospital.for the last 4 days or so he has been quite out of it.he is very dissorientated ,grabbing for things that are not there,hallucinations,sleeping 22 hours a day.we have spoken to a nurse and she seems to think it could be to do with his type 2 diabetes as he had a urine reading of 27.8(very high) we were told to take dad to his cancer ward at the hospital where it seems it is not the diabetes but a build up of morphine pain relief(mum did stop giving him this 2 days ago as pain was ok and because he seemed so out of it)they have kept dad in for at least overnite and the morphine has been stopped. they have also stopped the cancer drug for now as his poor mouth is so sore so they want to try an get him back to better health before restarting the drug again. i will update when i have more news.

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    15th SEPT 2011

    ARGGGGGHHHHHHH bloody bloody bloody

    just as i pick myself up and decide to be upbeat something comes along and bashes me back down. nothing major to most people but to me it is... ive been suffering with problems on my right knee for a few months. also have been having wee wee probs when i play netball 3 times a week so been getting that sorted as i love netball and want to keep playing without wetting my pants (tenna lady needed these days and im only bloody 40!!!!)

    well after consultation with knee and wee dr tests had been booked. had xray on knee and mri scan and went to see dr on tues being told there was good and bad news...good news is dont need an op on knee...hurrah ,bad news is you have to give up netball NOW!!!!...who is this dr? bloody god. hmmm i dont see me giving up i say its my passon and i love it to be told if u dont give up it will be major surgery ie a new knee and def no netball....hmmph i seem to remember u saying no netball anyway so what the difference, oh apart from an op that will prob hurt

    so  i leave my consultants office and ring my hubby and just burst into tears..cant believe how upset i  got over being told give up netball...as sean says its been my passion all my life and im not too bad at it either even if i say so myself...more or less decide to play this season as im all paid up and head off to netball tues eve to tell one of my teams this will prob be my last season playin (have to tell my other team tonite) i get there and say my bit and am all dont worry i will keep on playing till the knee gives out so maybe here for years yet!!!! hmmmm halfway through game i decide i prob wont be here for years as the knee is painful and sore and yet i am back playing tonite...am i mad some of u may ask...yes probably  but thats just me........well i have my next appoinment with my wee wee dr next week to book me in for the op to stop me wetting myself when i play netball...ironic eh that i prob wont be playing so no wetting self....oh well maybe i will be ok on a trampoline now!!!!! u gotta laugh eh

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    SEPT 27th 2011

     

    not been much to report last week or so. have now been back to see consultant and booked in for oct 25th for my bladder op.feeling quite nervous but also cant wait. on the house front sean has had an offer on his house which we have declined as it was 20k below the asking price and we cant afford to let it go for that price. hopefully they will offer more

    its mum and dads anniversary tomorrow so i will go and lay some flowers at dads grave then we are all going over to mums for dinner and to keep her company. she seems to be doing so well at the moment and my brother has been appointed her money manager hehe...rather him than me.

    my eldest is the one going through the mill at the moment. she has been quite poorly the last few weeks..as my nan would have said/down below womens problems. she is seeing our regular dr this evening who is seeing her after surgery to try and get to the bottom of everything. her mood swings have been awful too. she is seeing her councellor later and that always helps so fingers crossed there for her.

    it seems this indian summer heatwave has helped cheer us all up a bit. 24 degrees yesterday and warmer today...long may it last i say

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    OCT 11th 2011

    been finding it hard to get my head round this new site hence why i have not posted in a while.will try to keep it up if i can find where my blog hides on here.

    things have been ok ish the last few weeks...sadly our house sale has fallen through so back to square 1 again. i didnt think i would feel so gutted over it but i guess im desperate for us all to have this new fresh start

    josh my youngest is finding it hard to cope without my dad now.it seems he cant talk about dad etc without crying and being a 14 year old its not cool to cry and he has asked to see the same counceller that his sister is seeing so i will arrange that today.

    as for me well i cope little by little and day by day.some are better than others and some are worse. its just the unpredictable way it can catch me off guard. i do find it hard going to the grave to see dad and it upsets me so much but i feel guilty if i dont go.not sure what to do for the best really on that score.am sure my dad would say if he was here"dont go if it upsets u,i am with u wherever u are" so i guess i have answered that question myself

    love to all my mac friends and will try and post again soon

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    OCT 22nd 2011

    panic and fear has just overwhelmed me. i thought i was past this stage...utter panic just set in thinking about my dad and the fact he is gone. i was so frightened and my chest aches and the tears fall....its as if i cant believe he is not here and when i do the panic sets in. is so hard to describe how it feels...i know he is gone but i cant believe it...im really struggling today and ive not felt like this in a while. do i need to see someone to talk about this or is this just part of the grieving process.it bloody hurts that i know for sure and just as i feel im making progress i end up taking a step back. i guess things have been a bit sressful at the moment.what with our house sale falling through and i have my op on tuesday. i am trying not to worry about that but i am so nervous about the anesthetic etc ...luckily i have a fab husband, children,mum and close family around me who well help me recover.

    i will post again after the op and let you know how i am.love to u all

    wendie xx