the journey

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my amazing dad has been battling cancer for nearly 2 years now(wish i had found this site then)i thought i would write a diary /blog of how his treatment is going. it all began back in april 2009 when a urine infection showed up a tumour on his right kidney.he was whisked in to hospital to have the kidney removed within a week and the op was a success.he felt great after the op and back to normal within days so it came as a great shock to us all at his 3 month check up that the cancer had returned.they found small nodules on his lungs and tumours in the bone(hip and bottom of back) by the start of october dad had been given the cancer drug sutent.the side effects he felt made him lose weight all his hair went snowy white,had no taste for food and nausea. the nausea was controlled with different drugs.one of the good things about this treatment was you got a 2 week break in each cycle so on his 2 weeks off his appetite returned and he started to feel better. the sutent meds kept him ticking away for 14 months.we got the news end of nov begining of dec 2010 that a tumour in the spine had grown from 7cm to 18cm so the sutent was not keeping the cancer at bay so he was removed from it. this came as a huge blow to mum,dad myself and brother as who knew what the next step would be. he suffered with pains in his legs and a scan showed a non malignant tumour compressing the spine making the legs painful so he had 2 lots of radiotherapy which def helped and shrunk the tumour.dad was told of a new drug that they wanted him to trial.sadly he was not suitable for the trial due to blood counts etc but was told there was a fairly new cancer drug called everolimus(afinitor) they wanted him to try. this however would need funding.the price was very high but like the sutent(which needed funding we were optomistic.the news back 2 weeks later was no PCT had turned us down but dads consultant had applied to another company and they said yes.dad has been on the new treatment 10 days now.the main side effect of this is such a sore swollen mouth with ulcers which stops his ability to eat and drink.he does seem quite out of it at the moment so we are contacting mcmillan nurses and his cancer nurse.

7th march 2011

dad has been admitted to hospital.for the last 4 days or so he has been quite out of it.he is very dissorientated ,grabbing for things that are not there,hallucinations,sleeping 22 hours a day.we have spoken to a nurse and she seems to think it could be to do with his type 2 diabetes as he had a urine reading of 27.8(very high) we were told to take dad to his cancer ward at the hospital where it seems it is not the diabetes but a build up of morphine pain relief(mum did stop giving him this 2 days ago as pain was ok and because he seemed so out of it)they have kept dad in for at least overnite and the morphine has been stopped. they have also stopped the cancer drug for now as his poor mouth is so sore so they want to try an get him back to better health before restarting the drug again. i will update when i have more news.

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  • FormerMember
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    JUNE 13th 2011

    yesterday went well finalising wedding bits and bobs so thats great. did knock me a bit when walked into 1 shop and there were fathers day things everywhere. today i feel cheated that i wont be buying my lovely dad a card and telling him how much i love him.im also running the race for life (well walking) 2 days after i get married which also happens to be fathers day so im guessing my pocket will be stuffed with tissues as it will be a very emotional day. this time last year dad was cheering me on as me and charlie did race for life...also on fathers day. i think im feeling very sorry for myself today and emotional... i keep waiting for the big bang of emotions to hit me but they dont. it just comes in small waves. is this normal i wonder or as im guessing everyone is different and deals with their grief in different ways.  i am worried about my brother. he is supposed to be back at work today but im not sure he is going. he seems to have shut down on a work front which i totally understand but it wont stop me worrying about him.

    im picking up my wedding dress later and off to see my friend for a bit of girly time so will enjoy that. more to follow later

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    WENDIE YOU CAN STILL GET A CARD FOR YOUR DAD WRITE IN IT AND PUT IT AWAY.tHAT WAY YOU STILL GET TO PUT INTO WORDS WHAT YOU WANT TO TELL HIM XXSAMXX

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    JUNE 14th 2011

    what an evening last night with a bizarre  event.....earlier in 1 of my posts i mentioned that i felt i had been sent a sign from my dad(bit of paper with writing on found underneath his car after my brother went to chapel of rest to see him). it was a picture of 2 people in a car with mine and my brothers name written with an arrow pointing at us. also at the bottom of the paper were the words "ABOUT TO BREAKDOWN"....i had been pondering over this for the last week or so as to what it meant. was it 1 of us was going to breakdown over dads death or mayb just breakdown in the car. well last night i had my answer. for the first time since we got this bit of paper i had kept it in my bag with me all the time. for some reason i changed my bag yesterday and forgot to add the bit of paper to it. on the way home from seeing my friend last night i lost all power in my car and broke down. waited for tow truck and sean looked at car and said turbo had gone on it....instead of freaking me out boy oh boy do i feel comforted and i am 100% convinced that the paper was a sign from my dad. i think even my mum was a bit taken aback by it. as for my brother he was like...oh my god. i know a million people will have reasons as to why this is all coincidence but for me it is a def sign from my dad and i take great comfort in that which no one can take away from me

    hmmmm only thing is i really need my car.the wedding is in 3 days and soooo much to collect and do..mum to the rescue.she is driving dads car and her car has not sold yet so i can drive that about

    thank u dad for the sign.love you so much x x

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    JUNE 15th 2011

    today has been a lovely day. me and my bestie have been to the beauty salon where my daughter works for a total day of pampering before my wedding on friday. mum came along as well to have her nails done and really enjoyed herself

    im getting quite nervous now but also excited and sad as well as my dad wont be there in person. even if it rains my dad will make my special day so sunny for us and i know he will be smiling down on me and will be with me all day

    i am quite nervous as im doing a speech and part of it is for my mum and dad. i was going to change it to just my mum but changed my mind as i know dad will be with me so will address it to him as well

    tomorrow i will prob become bridezilla rushing around like a headless chicken but am stayin in a hotel tomorrow nite with my daughter step daughter mum and 2 besties so we can have a nice chilled evening.if i dont get on here tomorrow i will update after the wedding before charlie and i do the race for life on sunday

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    have a lovely day Wendie xx