I am not having a good day today. Where shall we start? Let’s begin with Christmas. We decided weeks ago to cancel Christmas. It seemed such a good idea at the time. There has now been a change of plan. We have realised that we do have to send cards because it’s going to be the best way to acknowledge all the messages that need replying to. Gifts do have to be sent because we can’t be mean to children and adults have been so supportive this year and need thanking. Traditional Christmas dinner is going to have to be cooked as people still have to eat and it’s a meal they all enjoy. My Mum is housebound and is in low spirits at the moment so their house is going to have to be decorated, and their friends and neighbours will be encouraged to drop round for drinks and nibbles. So I now have less than 3 weeks to organise Christmas. My husband and I are both physically and emotionally exhausted after the past few months. He is now poorly, hopefully just Man Flu. So I don’t think he is going to be much help.
I am getting increasingly frustrated and fed up. I have been warned enough times about this but it still came as a shock to find out that the majority of my friends and family don’t seem to realise that just because I am now classed as cancer free that it doesn’t mean that everything is suddenly fine. I do not want to spend New Year’s Eve on the streets of Edinburgh or on the bank of the River Thames. I will not be perked up by getting on a plane and going to visit friends in America or family in Australia. I do not wish to raise money for cancer research by running a marathon or doing a parachute jump. I don’t need to go the GP for medication because I am not depressed. I just want some peace and quiet and for people to leave me alone for a bit.
This post could have gone on for hours, there is a lot more to say and I’m a fast typist. Unfortunately I will have to stop for now as there are far more pressing issues. The Environment Agency have just phoned, texted and emailed some urgent alert. There is a lot of commotion going on in the street involving loudhailers and something to do with sandbags….
