I've been quite happy for the past week. It defiantly helped writing that first blog entry.
Only thing really troubling me now is my mother and father moving away. Their house in Hartlepool goes up for auction on my birthday, the 30th July. And I've seen a few of the houses in withernsea that they like. I'm happy for them and understand there are too many memories here of Alex but I want them to stay :(
The only people I have for me here is my partner , our daughter and his family and my best friend Natalie. If me and Jonny split, it will just be me Olivia and Natalie. Which is a very scary thought!
I would also like to add, I have recently got over a codeine addiction. Nearly 2 weeks clean. Which only a couple of people knew about ! I got prescribed them for constant back pain and spiralled from there over the course of a year. Cold turkey with no support was difficult but I'm so proud of myself. One of the withdrawal. Symptoms is a serious lack of drive and energy . Just want to lay on the sofa all day and do nothing . Which is still a bit with me but Olivia keeps me going !
I'm feeling good today though . 22 in less than 2 weeks and the weather has been lovely!
Jonny has a couple of days off after today so we are going to have some family time in the sun :)
I've thought of Alex a lot recently. His name comes up in 'recommended people' to tag in things on Facebook. Must be because he is listed as family. Seeing his name makes me miss his annoying messages asking me to watch silly videos. Or 'rock rolling' me. He did that a lot.
And it upsets me he will never meet Olivia. She was fascinated with his urn box at my mums the other day. I told her that was her uncle Alex and he would of called her 'fatty Olivia' as he used to call me 'fatty becca'
