well... ive been trying to keep this to myself as much as i possibly could.. but i have spoken about it to a few of you... im going to be having someone to talk to, because of how ive been feeling lately.
only the thought really scares me, makes me feel like im bit loopy or something, the words in the referral letter makes me feel like im loosing the plot...
so today i rang up the "physical health psychology service", (makes me feel a bit like i am mayb a little bit mad) to make my appointment, and they are going to be sending it out in the post, so that i get to see a pyschologist....
but if im really honest, i dont know what i would say to them. because i cant explain how im feeling, or even why ive been as down as i have been. i dunno if id be wasting there time. i mean i shouldnt have nothing to be down about really should i? im in remission, im all clear... but still feel the way i do... the littlest things still upset me.. grrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!
i rang up the hospital today, to find out about wether they know if i have an appointment to speak to the lung specialists or not.. but they seemed abrupt with me. like they hadnt got the time to speak to me... because the last few days ive had a pain in my back when ive been breathing in, and it got to the point i couldnt get comfy lying anyway.. the pain isnt to bad today, but just wanted reasurance.. but they didnt want to know really...
i dunno... just things dont make sense to me... maybe i am just wasting ther time, and i need to try get on with life without speaking to someone.
