trying to keep things to myself.. but was wondering....

Hi Em, Sorry to hear you are feeling down. We all have a 'new normal' after cancer and it must be even harder for you being so young and your friends who dont realise how precious life is yet. Unfortunatley you do know how precious it is. Take any help they offer you please. Chase up the hospital about the back pain, there is no need to suffer in silence.

Take Care Love Kaz x

Emma,

No need to feel at all bad about going to see a psychologist - just like a GP or oncologist - they are used to seeing new patients and helping you. And if anything in my experience psychologists are understandably better at reassuring you, and are experienced at asking questions to discover about you.

Yes it may be strange the first time, I certainly found that but quickly found it was just like going to the general hospital - but more calm and relaxing.

Regarding your lung issue, of course you are not wasting their time, it is for them to see you and sort you out as best they can. Why not get your GP on the case.

And as I have said to you several times, you have been through a traumatic year, and the end of chemo wasn't the end - it was the beginning of the end, and your body will need many months to return to normal, including your mind.

bets wishes

Malcolm

hi em,

sending you lots of love and hugs

Stacey xxxxxx

hiya em

when you say you rang the hospital -who did you speak to? admin? nurse or doc?

if it was admin then fone back and ask to speak to a medic or specialist nurse

i worked in the nhs for a few years and had to deal with all .......some admin (i was one!!!! but a nice one)

secretaries are awful ....think they run the bloomin hospital .......

if you dont get the reassurance or help you need go to PALS !!!!!

good luck hun

xNx

Good morning Em, thanks for getting in touch with us all.  You are not mad for seeing a psychologist, if your leg was broke you would see a surgeon, its all the same.  You don't know what you will say because at the moment you are like a big ball of wool all tied up in a bundle.  The psychologist will help you untie the ball, from beginning to end, then you will feel better I promise you.  Cancer is such a smack in the face, even harder when you are young as your life is just starting so you will need to get things into perspective.  After cancer treatment finishes we can sometimes get lots of aches and pains and they will settle with time, however, you should not ignore them and the best person, as Chris says, is the oncologist secretary.  The hospital don't mean to be abrupt and they shouldn't but sometimes we all get caught in an off moment so please persist and leave their rudeness behind you.  Please keep blogging, it may help you get your feelings out with us all here too as we may be more able to empathise.  Good luck, take care, Ann