Haven't written anything this month. Been busier at work, Champions League and other football events have taken up many of my evenings, I went home for Easter and I also needed a little break from checking this website on a daily basis. I am planning to write something about this last visit home and how relationships with friends and family have slightly shifted since diagnosis (good and bad ways).
I have another 3-month Haematology appointment this week and I just came back from the blood tests. Can you believe I had to book this test 4 weeks in advance? I went to book it late March and this was the earliest available slot, nuts! Walking around the hospital feels different every time. The long long corridors were a massive challenge when I was under treatment, it was so exhausting. Have to go up the stairs in the entrance, turn left, turn right, go along 50 m corridor, turn right, then left again, then walk what I think is 150-200m corridor again, then left another 30m, then right another 20m, then you get to Phlebotomy. It is as if the Severance (TV show) producers designed this hospital.
I am not feeling anxious for the first time in a while. My left hip and thigh keep bothering every other day. If I am anxious I start to think that maybe something (not good) is happening inside my bones). If I am rational I think me seating in the same position for 8 hours and doing only 3-4 breaks per day is causing this. Surely I am fine when I just did 1h20 min on the indoor bike non stop yesterday? But then when I sleep with my garmin it says my O2 sats goes to 93-94% at night? It's all in the mind?
Things are looking better and if the bloods are fine I feel this will finally be a confidence boost in the recovery journey. I feel fitter every day and now manage to do 3 or 4 days of >30min intense exercise per day without feeling exhausted the days after. My hair is nowhere near pre-treatment looks but it is also growing thicker less fluffier (although at the top it still feels like fur, not hair). I am waiting for the fertility test results, will see how these look like, this kind of worries me a little. If the fertility results are not good I wonder how I will react though.
More to follow in a few days...
