Hi, I feel kind of stupid doing this on the internet, but I don't like to let my feelings show a whole lot. My wife of 7 years was rediagnosed with cancer 1-08, since then they did all the Chemo and everything they could do. She had cancer when she was about 35 and now it is back again. After a year and a half of Chemo they said there is nothing more they can do. Basically it is a waiting thing. Recently she was in constant pain almost 24 7. I tell you I damn near had a nervous breakdown. I had to check on her all the time, let me tell you she was a real bitch, but I know she was just trying to push me away. I told her to knock it off I took a vow and that is that. This lasted for about 2 weeks. I feel bad because there wasn't anything I could do. I even got to the point where I tried to block out the crying and weeping it didn't work cuz I would hear her all the time. I even checked her about every hour or so to make sure she was still breathing. Right now she is in the hospital, she had an abcess they needed to take care of and there are other things I won't get into now. I just wish and hope things will be better after her stay in the hospital. Myself and her sister and all of her friends know this is terminal and she doesn't have long left when she gets home. Is there any advice you could give me as a spouse going through this. I really could use anything you give me. Thank you so much, Jes
