Yesterday saw my Birthday, and also the beginning of Mums 4th and final cycle of chemo.
I havn't blogged for a couple of day because I have been feeling absolutely fine about everything.
Saturday was good, we went for our breakfast and spent all day just watching tv and chatting.
Then last Saturday night I was watching T.V and saw a comedian Russell Howard showing a clip about a website called postpals. I will give the link at the end of this blog.
When I looked at the site, made me appreciate a few things, I was reading about a little girl who is 9, since the age of 6 she has been battling with cancer, her tumor started in her leg, went to her lungs and now in her brain. The same day I went on the radio to talk about this blog, her mother had to tell this 9 year old that there was nothing that they could do for her.
Now..............doesn't that put things into perspective?
Anyway, Sunday I went to church on my own and then took mum shopping in her chair.
While I was waiting for her to get ready she asked me if I wanted to see her hair. I said yes.
I think I knew what to expect as I had been seeing the whisps of hair diminish from under her hat slowly. It wasn't that much of a shock really. We had a laugh about it because she said looked like Richard O Brian in the Rocky Horror Show, though he had more hair!
I also needed to go to another shop but we had forgotton the disabled badge to display in my car window.
As we had the wheelchair in the back, I said well we'll park in the disabled bay anyway, and if anyone pulls us up about it, take your hat off!
I think her skin tone looked a bit grey that day.
I was talking to my boyfriend the other day and said the word chemo. My son (who is two) copied the word. I know he doesn't know what it actually means, but made me a bit sad that it was now part of his vocabulary.
I think I'm making a conscience decision not to talk about it any more in front of him.
Mum was too tired after chemo yesterday to come to my house, but she phoned me and had a chat and sang happy birthday to me over the phone.
She is in for another long day today as she needs blood again aswell as the chemo and maybe more blood tomorrow too.
My birthday was low key, a quiet meal with family, its one of the first years I havn't made a fuss, because what I really want is to stop everyone hurting from this god damn awful disease, and that can't be bought from amazon, ebay or the petrol station.
If you have 5 minutes spare today please click on this link and put a smile on a childs face.
Happy belated birthday! Hope your mum copes ok with her fourth cycle of chemo. My mum did tend to get more tired with each cycle but it has been worth it for the good days she's now having. I will go and have a look at that website as soon as I sign off from here. So love to you, your mum and the rest of the family. Take care. Caroline XX
