Devastated

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FormerMember

6 Jul 2010

6.7.10

We had the results from the biopsy today and the cancer has spread to mums gall bladder. We know that we were expecting this to be the news that we got but it still does not prepare you for the force with which the news hits you. I am so tired, tired of holding it together, tired of being strong. I need my mum but my mum needs me. We do not know until Monday when we see the oncologist what the options are, if any. It may only be palliative from here on in.

I keep saying positive things to try and keep mum up as much as I can, such as you are living with cancer not dying of cancer. I want her to grab all that she has with both hands and live her life to the fullest for however long that may be.

Her INR is not quite right as she has been off her warfrin for almost a week but hopefully they will have it sorted for her to go home at the weekend. We are going away next Friday for a few days and I intend that we will have happy times together. Today I sat with mum after I had showered her and painted her nails for her. I want her to feel good, I want her to know she is loved so much, I want what I can not have and that is to keep my mum so she can watch me become an old lady, to watch my children have children.

Life has been so cruel to us as a family and the good keeps being over shadowed by the bad.

I will not let my Mum give up this fight, if it takes every last ounce of strength I have I want her to fight with all she has and I will do what ever I can to support her.

FormerMember over 14 years ago

Hi Ginge,

You must have one very proud mother who has a daughter who is willing to try everything to keep her going.and hope with all my heart that you suceed.

All the best and good luck.

take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xxx
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

i know exactly how u feel my dad had an op last year for oesophagal cancer ,wow everything was ok so we thought hes done it hes beat this evil ****** but no not even a year on its back,dad new something was wrong,asked for a scan 6 months ago,but did they give him it no,so when they finally did what did they find ,what he had been telling them for 6 months its back in both his adrenals,we saw onc yesturday he is going to try a bout of chemo but thats all they can do because its a secondary so we must be strong for him and do any thing he wants he is the best dad anyone could ask for im trying to be strong but deep down im broken hearted i love him so much ,so u r not alone but i know how u feel and it is breaking my heart my thought r with u and your mum xxxx kelly xxx
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

My beautiful daughter broke down yesterday in front of me and I was so glad that she did, she said all the things that you are saying and it broke my heart but I made her a promise and that was to fight this with everything I have and I will be around for as long as I can. For me, knowing my daughter loves me so much, what more can I ask for, I am very lucky to have such a daughter and so is your mum. We would never in a millions years put you through this or hurt you if we had a choice...All my love to you and your mum..Carol x
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