Hello all,
After a while it has been decided that I'll be taking the year off of university to spend with my parents, in Hong Kong.
First i'll be statying with my mum until she's done with her radiotherapy then we're flying to Hong Kong to join dad...
but.... dad's going ahead which means... he'll be wanting to see my eldest sister, Alvina. that's a little problem because.. she's been letting him down a lot and.... shes.. frankly, she lies alot. I dont know why but she's been like this since we were kids. She's very unreliable, last time she came to visit dad in England she caused a huge stink over nothing, upsetting the whole family. I dont think i wrote about this much because .. well it's so much trouble over so little things. But in a rather big nutshell..
She's been accused of running around with her friends(in HK) instead of help collecting things for dad to bring over to UK. So, instead of flying over to visit dad, she was here to make a huge stink about how she wasnt running around with her friends, and she was busy working(which she was unemployed at that point). She argued with mum til mum's neck swelled up from stress and dad was shaking in his chair. I had no idea what to do... She locked herself in the guest room and refused to come out for an entire night and day. and it had to be the day before dad's 1st chemotherapy session too. So I went into the guest room and sweet-talked her out. Even though it was the truth. Alvina is dad's favourite and I understand, but i wasn't the least bit jealous til she caused such a huge scene.
She hasn't dared talk to my mum after that, my sister Ayame will only talk to her if she calls and me.. I've been trying to get her to talk to dad more even though deep inside. I hate her.
at one point i even thought if the bad kid is getting all the attention, why be the good kid and all sorts of things. but finally i came up with my resolve which is, to care dad is to care for alvina. I try talking to her but she wont talk back to me.
I've tried reaching out to her and she just ignored me. I still havent stopped trying, i really dont want her to regret not spending time with dad while he's stil healthy and stil walking around. With her around, I'm sure dad will be happier and worry less about her too. Only with just her and dad... she's notorious for arguing and upsetting dad. My cousin Andy wants to be there but my mum adivsed against it because Alvina is deathly jealous of Andy as dad treats him like his own son.
my 2nd problem is mum. Im staying but after i move i want to spend a week down to cornwall with my boyfriend Joe and his mum Pauline and his nan Dora. Dora is 75, she doesnt have cancer but has high blood pressure and gout. She treats me like her own grandchildren and i treat her like my own grandmother. I don't know when i'll see her again after I go to hK so i want to visit her. but 1 week is too long for my mum. She will be alone in the new house where she's not used to and, when alone, she has a serious phobia of the dark. My Auntie Vivienne(not related but close friend) who lives about 1 hour away offered to stay but my mum feels awkward to have her stay a week. Vivienne has a heart problem and it gets worse when she's stressed. She hasnt been stressed but she is prone to collasping which will scare my mum...
I really want to go but i cant just leave mum... am i being selfish?... i dont know but i'm really worried about everyone.
thanks for reading.
Love
Momoka
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