I didn't sleep at all last night, dont know why. It isnt me who's ill afterall.
I've been reading the blogs people post up and all of them are truely inspiring. there's been more than several times ive wanted to post a message saying "hey you! yeah you! i really admire you! i'm not sure how to say this but you are a strong and amazing person!".... but i think about who am i?... and i .. dont know why i'm suddenly being shy... but reading about how other people are going through this illness and they're all real people... it kind of makes me feel a little better about Dad.
I'll be going to see him this afternoon to meet my eldest sister Alvina too who arrived in UK last night at about 9pm... I sure hope Alvina hasn't started a row with my mum... they've never seen eye to eye and lately they've been squabbling over the phone, in front of dad... lets hope they both think about dad before raising their voice...
I'm worried about thrombosis in dad's arm... last night he said his hand was so cold, it kept him up all night then mum woke up at 4am, found him sat on the living room sofa with a glove on his hand.
Must be my time of the month or something, i've feeling worse than usual... must make sure i'm dehydrated before going to see them. i'd rather bite off my own tongue than cry infront of dad right now.
Thank you for reading
Love
Momoka
xXx
FormerMember
None of what you or your family are going through is easy. It is easy to fight amongst yourselves because of the tremendous stress...in every way...emotional, financial, etc. Old 'stuff' comes up, new 'stuff' comes up...how do you handle it all? Each person handles it differently. The best that YOU can do is handle it in a way that is most comfortable for you, whatever that may be. I try to think in a forward fashion, i.e., not dwell on the 'bad', because it will be there and make itself evident. I try to be grateful for those things that did NOT happen, or what could have been worse. Know that you are not alone in this disgusting disease...there are many of us. A tight hug for you.
Thank you very much for your reply, I had lost connection and hadn't gotten 'round to getting it back up. It's only 11:15am and it's already been a bad day, but seeing your reply made me feel better.
