so today my best friend told me her and her boyfriend are going to buy a house.. as her best friend i should be jumping for joy being happy for her.. but instead im jealous and wishing it was me instead... after our convo i go back to the hospital and my boyfriends lying there trying hard not to be sick! he had his liver operated on 3 days ago and he's really nausiated and unwell :( they cut a big chunk from the middle where the two tumors were and glued the two sides together.. he also had his gallbladder removed to..
and now im concerned that the liver will get more tumors.. he had his bowel operated on 7 weeks ago and they removed a big tumor which wasnt cancerous thanks to radiation and chemo.. the surgen said when he took the two liver mets out he couldnt see any more.. and its been months since he had chemo so im guessing its a good sign..
i really am just over it! i just want my boyfriend to feel better asap! everyone is so worried but i know its the drugs making him feel yuck.. we're just inpatient! i just want this all to be over so we can move on with our lives! we're only in our early twenties we should be celebrating our lives not going through this! :( im angry, sad and just down.. nobody at work even cares to ask how im going, they all stress and get anxious over the dumbest things!
anyway enough of my worries just had to get that all off my chest :)
