It's been nearly a year since my last blog, and firstly i would like to apologise for not replying to the individuals that posted very nice and encouraging comments on it.
its now been 2 and a half years, I've left school, i'm in my second year at college, and am planning to go to university next year to study to be a nurse, where i can then progress into training to become a Macmillian nurse. The help and support the nurses gave my family and i has inspired me to help others that are in the same situation that we was.
A day still doesn't go by that i don't think about my mum, and it certainly doesn't get easier, if anything it gets harder. lately i've been thinking about the important events in my life such as getting married and having children.
It breaks my heart knowing that she's never going to be a nan, and that she's not going to be there beside me to hold my hand and tell me every things going to be ok like she used to.
i was in a conversation the other day, and my friend said i was an inspiration to her. my other friend then added that i could only be an inspiration towards someone that knows what i went through. it took me a long time to think about that statement, but i now understand where he was coming from, how can you be an inspiration to someone that doesn't have a clue what it's like to lose someone very close to them, especially at a young age like myself.
I'm finding it very hard at the moment, I'm very emotional and feel like i have no one to talk to that can help me, if anyone fancies having a chat, let me know i would do with one!
Xx
