Acceptance?

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It's been a few months since diagnosis and going through the motions with treatment but I don't know if I have, or ever will fully accept it.I'm meant to be making memories, stories to tell the grand children in my old age, but I won't ever grow old.

I'm meant to making memories, stories to tell the grandchildren when I grow old ... But the truth is I won't ever grow old.

I recently married, bought our first home together but all I keep thinking is How long will this last?

Sorry for the pity party by the way, I'm not usually like this, just figured this would be a good place to vent

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember
    Hun, there are no words I can say that will help, but I am so sad to hear of your diagnosis. Life can indeed be cruel. Live everyday to the full and just love your husband and your life together. There is a group for Incurable cancer on here. It may help you to talk to others in the same position as you. I send you lots of love and strength and hope you can see some brightness ahead xxx
  • FormerMember
    FormerMember
    Hi I too was given 18mths to live,it was humbling 6yrs later almost 7 I'm still here but I'm now suffering really bad with the after effects depression anxiety don't know which was worst the cancer or the life after....every now and then I need reassuring I'm ok my battle started when I was 39yrs old I had small children... Cervical cancer I had radiotherapy chemo all was well, few years later it came back in the form of kidney cancer so after a big op all clear I did get secondaries on my lungs that magically disappeared ...now I feel worthless depressed sad I don't want to go out I feel more isolated as the days pass....and more depressed I'm too scared to go to the doctors as the last time he said it was all in my head.. Made me feel crazy anyone else feel like this I can't cope anymore!
  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Thank you for your kind words , I am trying to keep my head up and spending time with loved ones.

    I'll have a look at the incurable cancer group and see if I can find anyone who has been where I am.

     I am so sorry to hear how you are feeling, you should not have to go through this on your own.

    Open up to your family, they are all probably so concerned for you but unable to give much comfort. You should get referred for some professional help from your Doctor, nobody needs to go through this alone.

    Hope you begin to feel better soon <3