MY 2nd EVER WEB BLOG - RIP MUM - 30.08.44 to 28-12-08
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This is only my 2nd ever web blog, the 1st one being on this site 6wks ago on the 20th of november, i wrote in that about finding out my mum had lung cancer 4 wks previously.
The reason i am writing this blog is to tell you what happened next, her condition was inoperable due to her also having emphysemia and a previous heart attack a year before. It was decided that her treatment would be chemo and radiotherapy. Her 1st course of chemo was on the 27th of november and she sailed through it, for the first week she was great, the 2nd week she was in agony and in terrible pain, but by the 3rd week she was herself again. Her 2nd course of chemo was on the 18th december but unlike her 1st dose the side effects took hold the following day and she felt terrible. By Christmas Eve she was in agony and my dad called the doctor, he reckoned she would pick up in another day or two. On Christmas day she managed to phone me, but i could not understand her and on boxing day she was admitted to hospital. Her kidneys had failed and septicemia had set in. Unfortunately my mum did not respond to treatment and died at 00.18 on the 28.12.08.
RIP MUM - YOU WERE A REMARKABLE WOMAN, MY ROCK, MY INSPIRATION. my love for you will always be to infinity and beyond xx
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To all who posted comments and Hannah
I would like to thank everyone who posted comments and to thank them all for their kindness.
To Hannah i would like to say i am especially gratefull for her taking the time to comment and would like to offer her my condolences also. You truly know what i am going through at this time and once again i would like to say thank you,
You are welcome - seems weird to be sharing such agony with someone, but at least knowing that there is someone out there who really is in the same boat is comforting.
I found a video of my mum today when she first went out to Kenya some 6 or 7 years ago and it was amazing! It was so wonderful to see her again when she was fairly mobile and only needed a walking stick to balance her on her feet. She was swimming in the pool and laughing with friends there and drinking huge cocktails! It made me realise just how disabled she had become in the last couple of years and how truly awful that must have been for her to be such a wonderful outgoing person trapped in the body of someone who needed a Zimmer frame or wheelchair every time they wanted to move somewhere. I still have these moments of overwhelming sadness that come over me, but that's just my love for her I think and that longing to be with her, talk to her, kiss her, hold her hands - hopefully this will always be with me, but not in such a painful way.
I'm rambling - sorry! Take care of yourself honey xxx
Sorry for not getting back sooner, just beginning to pull myself together and taking one day at a time. I haven't been able to look at pictures of my mum yet as i know i will break down again and i feel as if i need to be stronger before i can face that.
I know what you mean about seeing your mum how she was before she became ill, it took me a long time to come to terms with my mum having to use a wheelchair when her emphysema became problematic about 6 or 7 yrs ago also, I found it hard to cope with seeing her so vulnerable after years of her being a rock to us all.
Like yourself i am trying to take it one day at a time and will probably see it as a blessing that the caner took her so quickly in the end, but at the moment that feels like a million miles away.
Hello Margo, First let me offer my heartfelt sympathy to you and your family. I lost my mum in March 2007. She had many health problems which cut short her freedom but was then diagnosed with sclc in Jan 2007. I still have times of great sadness but the good memories by far outweigh the bad ones. (I am thinking about her more now though as my husband now has nsclc). You will in time begin to think of your mum without thinking too much about her illnesses and focusing more on happier times (i hope). Anyway, once again please accept my sincere condolences. x x
