Markus has begun his final journey. The doctor said she can make no prognosis, because she has miscalculated his tenacity before, but she thinks the process has begun. His lungs are not working properly, so he has continuous infusions of valium to prevent restlessness and morphine to stop the feelings of breathlessness. It's what he wanted. He has oxygen, too.. He can barely react to anything now, can't lift his head alone, can't stand lying down, so he is propped up in his bed with lots of pillows.
I spend a lot of time at the hospital, but sometimes I need a break. I stayed till 2 am last night and was in again at 8am. I just feel restless myself.
His sister and his two brothers are going to see him this afternoon, then I'll go back in the late afternoon.
