A strange peace

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A strange peace has settled over the kitchen. The dishwasher only runs once every second day, instead of twice a day. The juicer is silent and has been for weeks. No pans are used, nothing is cooked. Only the electric kettle goes speedily about is business in a regular fashion - I need countless cups of coffee. The fridge is full - I've forgotten about half of what is in it. Lots of things that Markus said he might fancy, but didn't. No more frantic searching for foods which are tasty and full of calories. No more hectic reading about cancer-fighting vegetables and trying out different concoctions to boost the immune system, mine as well as his. Even my flu jab didn't work. And so there is this strange peace. It isn't a happy peace, but nor is it torn by sorrow and frantic searching. It is more of a winding down, a transition, a shifting of priorities. We seem to be entering a new phase. And it is more pleasant than the last few weeks. My husband is back again - when he was in the hospital, and the first few days at home, he was like a different man, a stranger. He could talk to his sister better than to me. He probably still can, but I don't feel shut out any more - he's not as rejecting as he was. Quite the opposite. He's back again. He can't speak a lot, just in a whisper. But he smiles, crinkles his eyes, finds things funny, makes short witty remarks. Or just sits and holds my hand as I lie on the bed beside him and Ariel, our cat, rubs his face against both of us.Small things, but they give such great pleasure.
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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    wanted to say I am thinking of you - nothing maudlin or sad, just thinking of you both.  One of my favourite quotes actually comes from the comedy film Cool Runnings...."peace be the journey".

    Debs xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    I think of you often Pat and of course Markus.

    It would seem youve come to believe "what will be will be", but if the pans are not clanging about it means you yourself aint eating?? You have to ook after your self too Pat .

    None of us knows whats happening tomorrow  so we live for today

    You have been here since I first came on and I treasure your friendship ,

    My thoughts are with you and Markus

    Take care

    love  Jimxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    What a beautiful piece of writing  Pat, you brought a tear to my eye, I am so glad you have Markus back and are appreciateing your time with him, but Jas is right please take care of yourself  and find some time to eat, no matter how little.  

    My thoughts are with you both

    Jo Mac

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Pat

    As I sat and read your blog - I could feel the peace coming thro your words

    For you and Markus and also for me - here come a few tears

    They are lovely words and will mean so much to so many - but mainly for you

    I would just like to say 'Enjoy each day'

    BIG HUGS and

    Much Love

    Christine

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Aw Pusspins

    That was written in a nice way. It is lovely that your husband can laugh and joke with you. That always brings a smile to my face when my does these things.

    I'm off to see my mum tonight, I just hope I can make her use that lovely smile.

    xxx