We've had so many people in and out since John came out of hospital and I'm not sure whether it's good for him. When they're here, he makes a big effort to talk and entertain them when I know that all he really wants to do is to close his eyes and rest. It's wearing him out and it's making me so uptight and tired because I just want us to settle into a quiet routine.
His brother and wife have just left and he's so wiped out that he's gone to lie down on the bed. And tomorrow is Father's Day so who knows how many people will turn up?
His pain is more or less under control and the sickness isn't quite so bad today but he's taking an awful lot of Oxynorm which is making him a bit confused and forgetful. He's also very wobbly on his feet so I'm constantly following him about and that makes him cross.
I popped out to town today while his daughter was here to look after him and I was so envious of all the people wandering around in the sunshine being 'normal'. Oh how I long for normality again. I sat and had a quick cup of coffee before returning home but felt guilty because John wasn't there beside me and I felt like telling people to make the most of what they have because you never know when your whole world is going to be turned upside down.
Getting maudlin now so I'd better end.
Madge x x x x x x
