Sunday 4th July 2010
I haven't been on the Mac site for a while because I've been feeling very down and I can't quite put my finger on the reason. Because of that, I've stayed away because I didn't feel up to offering encouragement to other people and that's what this site is all about.
It's true that we've had a crap week - one thing after the other seemed to go wrong - but we have had some good news this week, i.e. that John's scan results look good. So why am I feeling so miserable?
I wake up every morning and feel sometimes that I can't take another day. Everything seems so pointless. I don't even phone my friends and family and I feel like John and I are trapped in a bubble. Even our little dog Gemma isn't very well and everything seems to be piling in on top of me.
I know that others on this site have far more than me to bear and I apologise for being so miserable. The fact is, I just can't help it and it's not like me!
I'm hoping I can pull myself together soon and be more positive so I can join in with you all in Chat and offer some comfort and encouragement to others. I do miss you!
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