Had to go back into hospital last week, finally allowed home on Friday 16th., with the very hard to hear information, that the cancer had come back with a vengeance, and to top it all off I had probably less than 3-4 months left to live. I've pretty much accepted this now, and believe it or not I am OK with it, I think my Mum and my Husband are being superheroes the way that they have been able to deal with it all. My Husband is 50yrs old and should be contemplating a retirement with me his wife of 30yrs, not widowhood.
No parent should have to bury their child and yet when I die and am buried my mum will have buried two of hers, also a Grandson, and two Great-grandsons makes one wonder how much the human spirit can cope with,but if my mum is anything to go by at the moment, certainly her spirit is indomitable.
So their the one's that are keeping my spirits up,and beside's haven't we all heard about the guy who was told that he had six months to live, and lived for 10yrs.
Well I just wanted to keep you all in the loop, as you've all been so supportive, since I found you guys a few weeks ago. I'll keep you up to date, and if I do get too ill to manage I'll get my children (two grown boy's) to let you know whats going on and where I am todate.
Oh Lynda... I'm so sorry. Your blogs have always been so positive and no-nonsense that I don't think any of us appreciated how sick you had become. I wish doctors didn't put 'best-before' dates on their patients when they can't always be accurate and they only serve to drown the recipient in misery. You seem more concerned how your family will cope than about yourself? I hope they all love you as much as you love them (I'm sure they do!). Savour every moment with your lovely family.
If I was a believer I would say 'God Bless'... but I'm not so I wish there was an atheist alternative which conveyed the same depth of meaning that - I care.
You sound a very brave lady by the way you have written the above. Like a lot of us here we worry more about how our loved ones are going to cope with our news! Although I don't agree with doctor's giving people 'how long' estimates I do think it can be a blessing in disguise. Always have hope but on a practical note it allows you space to put your affairs in order and to say all the things you thought you had years to say to the ones you love. Those that go suddenly always leave behind someone who wished they had time to say something, either to heal a rift or to say I love you. I hope to see you keep posting for a long time but if you can't (for whatever reason) it would be good if your son's kept us all informed on how you are.
So sorry to hear your news. My partner was given the same news last week, the day before his 42 nd birthday. It is not easy news to digest, but you sound just like my partner with the same level of acceptance. I had an e mail from a friend theother day, and i thought you may like to hear what she said. " only good things have a short shelf life, so it must mean you are like a precious organic strawberry". It made me smile, so i hope it does you too. Thinking of you and your family. Keep strong and sending you a big HUG xxxxxxxxxx
