I've always been an optimistic person but thats with a heavy dose of relying on my Heavenly Father and my faith. We are always faced with challenges, daily, hourly and in a split second it can change. The mood, the ideas, goals that have been set previously, flood the mind
today, i struggle as a spouse of a cancer patient. It started as throat cancer and has now spread out throughout his body. Im sure u know the feeling, going through but not being the one going through it is just as draining but more guilt building faster than chemo spreads in the veins. We've gone through the whys, the blank-spaced out looks,the blames, and now after going through our (as a wife i feel that im going through it also being the supporting other)1st round of chemo & radiation treatments, then after a few months of rest come 6 months then we are told it has spread to other parts of the body. At 1st it became a lovely time for me for i was able to take a long awaited family leave from my work. as my husband went through his treatments i called it "my alone time" i felt guilty but only for a moment. although i did sit and wait for him in the waiting room of radiation/chemo it was enjoyable meeting new people old and young and learning of their walk with cancer. to be continued.....
