With all the channels of communication open to me I still feel unable to talk to someone directly. Words are easier to write and delete whereas talking leaves me unable to hold everything in and I'm sure people are bored of the wobbly lip and pretend dust in my eye. My partner's mother has, in the last nine months, been diagnosed with pancreatic, lung, liver and stomach cancer with cells recently discovered in her lymph nodes. After two rounds of aggressive chemo back in March we thought we were winning and she was granted a break from treatment. Since then she has steadily got worse and after a scan the other day we learnt that all area's affected show a massive increase in cancer cells. She has been offered more chemo but it's a case of going thorugh harrowing treatment for three months to add another pain filled three months to her life expectancy. She is ready to give up now and that is absolutely her choice, I can't even begin to comprehend how hard that decision is to make but my partner cannot understand this. He is a grown man who I've seen cry once in the 8 years we've spent together and in the last 9 months he has been nothing but optimistic and hopeful for a positive outcome. This recent news has pushed him over the edge of a cliff and I don't think he'll ever land. He is so close to her and relies on her for so much that I honestly don't know whot to do or say. It all seems so final without and end in site.
