Tuesday is the day for me to have my scar tattoo’d and then zapped on the 8th Oct so that the Cancer doesnt travel to the surface from my lung.
Im learning so much about this mesothelioma that I never ever knew before.
All this time this nasty has been inside my lung waiting to grab me like an alien.
Well Monday we are going to go to Dover and Ramsgate for shopping therapy and walk the dog by the sea, just enjoying this wonderful sunny weather.
I have emailed 2 friends who have both got Cancer and one is very ill.
We chat away and share our problems each propping the other up.
My Son has phoned tonight and it breaks my heart that I have burdoned him with all this just when he should be really enjoying his life with his girlfriend. I love them and my Grandson so much xx
I know though that when I go they will be there for Ray and that is a big comfort.
I have been sorting my books out today, I dont need all those diet books anymore, years of worrying about my weight and paying a fortune for weight watchers and reaching gold.
Now Im being asked “”how is your appetite” are you loosing weight” how the tables have turned.
Well it has been a good day and I kept taking the tablets so the pain has been kept under and my arms have been better today –thats how they go one day good and the next bad.
So Im off to bed now one more day over and another tomorrow but Im so pleased Im writing this blog as my family know how I feel and so there will be no need for letters to be written as it is all here my heart lays bare on these pages.
