My Thoughts today--- Jealousy

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14 May 2010

My next door neighbour told me that he has had a scan and an appointment for his Prostrate Cancer and that he got the all clear "I have no more Cancer" he told me and do you know I was jealous and today I realise just how jealous I was and that I should have congratulated him better.

It was selfish as i know I will never get that news and that I'm not the person I was a year ago and certainly not like I was two years ago.

I hope my scan has given me another 3 months grace and that's all I can hope for at 3 monthly intervals.

A lot of my Facebook and Macmillian friends or their partners or parents are not getting even that, as this Meso takes their lives one by one and yet they are a happy and loving bunch and we shore each other up.

Oh well I will have lots of good times camping as that is my love and my passion.

Packing the M/Home up and travel off.

So Congratulations Dave I hope you have a long and happy life.xx

FormerMember over 15 years ago

Hi

It is Ok to feel like this, we all go through it at times, I watched a guy getting the all clear at the hospital a few weeks ago and he was stunned to say the least. One part of me was delighted for him but another part was jealous because I know that this will never happen for my hubby - too many cancers too many times - and for a moment I wished we could be that family.

Cancer doesn't make you an angel, it doesn't stop human emotions. Yep it makes you think about some things differently but it doesn't stop you feeling like 'normal' people.

So don't fret and enjoy what you like in life. Good Luck!

Ray x
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

Mavis,

You are not the only one to think such thoughts. I have them too.Even though I know I should be glad that G has survived so well for so long,the niggle is always there that his time is limited. We are only human, and of course we want the best for ourselves and our own!

Have a wonderful time on your travels. Enjoy every minute.

Daffie xxx
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

My mum has just found out she has lung cancer, not operable, not cureable. just trying to slow/shrink it My aunt who had lung cancer 10 years ago, half of lung removed, has just found out she has it again in the other lung...... Mum thinks she's lucky cos they said its operable.... I dont think it is lucky .????
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

As you say, a lot of people don't even have the 3 months Mavis. I don't think anyone would begrudge you feeling jealous, I think we are all when we are going along this horrid road. Just pack the van and disappear. We'll join you next weekend, and hopefully the sun will shine on us all for a little while.

Good luck to all those that do manage to get the all clear.

Viv
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