There is something new going on today and that's I cant sleep because I cant lay still.
If I'm flat I wont to be curled if I'm curled I want to be flat.
Continually on the move --so I got up visited the bathroom and I have taken painkillers and hope I might tire-- so writting my blog even earlier. 2.45 to be precise.
Its a shame as I had a great day yesterday.
We went to lunch with friends and had a good time.
We took Louis in the car and set off along to the sea front and while I stayed with our friends Ray took Louis for a great walk on the beach in the Rain-- so he has at last had a good walk -- then a great play with our friends Daughter who tired him right out.
Lots of soup and bread and chat and I really did feel better.
I was worn out by the time we got back home so had a sleep and everything was good.
A MHF friend has emailed asking if it would be OK to come and see me from Leeds in December and we would go out for a meal,but I cant plan a December meet up, as I don't know where I will be on the Chemo programme and how I will feel.
Makes me realize how messed up my life is as I would have normally said "yes great --of coarse" --I cant.
Not until this Chemo programme is finished can I do what I want.
I have trouble with even planning this weekend I want to go in the M/H to a Rally on sat and stay for one night but I don't know how I will be or if I can cope with a night away, I know Ray is worried if we go as he is always worry if I do to much.
We had a dinner of Sweet and sour chicken, which I cooked for us, last night but I get so bloated-- never before have I had that feeling that I have eaten enough but now I leave the table feeling so full.
I made a rhubarb and custard during the evening much to Rays delight.
By bedtime I was so tired I dropped into bed and went straight off to sleep and then the fidgets started. Wiggle wiggle wiggle.
Oh dear I will go back and try to have some more sleep.
