Woke up and found it was 1.30am (isnt that maddening when you think its about 5)
Went to the bathroom and also another swill with Mouth wash as I find it gets rid of the bad taste.
Had a sip of a drink and went back to bed then the bucket was needed.
Awake now at 5.30 with the sound of the Thanet Way Traffic with ordinary people going to their working place for the day and yet I know some them have so many problems as that is life today isnt it .
I watched neighbors out in the sun yesterday all laughing and joking with their lives going on being able to plan a future and just having fun.
That was me this time last year planning a 3 month adventure in Spain that we went on in Jan -mar this year, and now look what has happened.
I will always remember that adventure as I was so full of life and hope and enjoyment walking in and out from La Nucia to Benidorm, yes walking up that steep long drag, Walking up the mountain that was behind my sons villa with the dogs.
Driving for miles through the wonderful mountains to villages tucked away and waterfalls, picking oranges and lemons from the groves and almonds off the ground.
Out everynight dancing and singing on the Stage and showing off ( like I do) and just having fun with no sign of what was in my lung’s but then its been like that for 49 years for thats when I washed Rays clothes with this killer dust on.
But– this to is an adventure and I must live through it for the sake of my family and friends and as Sara has given me such hope after saying they did a 3 month round the world trip after her husbands treatment then I to would like to plan another adventure.
A thing that worries me is, if so many of us are on Chemo and the waste products is going through the system how is it being all dealt with or is this something else that will cause big problems in the future?
The dog still wont leave my side and the looks he gives me as he stares at me all day, he really does know whats going on.
When he goes out with Ray he digs his heels in and just wont go it is getting so embarrassing for Ray.
Louis has always been a difficult dog as he is a rescue and we have had so much training for him but the mistake is I have been doing all that training so I’m the leader of the pack he must be very confused.
Ray has to run his life so Louis has just got to get used to it.
I wonder if I should send them on a coarse together and yet Ray has enough to do at the moment.
I have a very dear friend who runs a caravan site and who has a very large piece of ground here in a field I’m tempted to ask the favour if we could exercise Louis there as its out of season now.
Don’t I sound better today thinking more clearly that’s a surprise as yesterday ended up the same as the other days (on the settee and sick) but I do feel more alert.
I’m bored though and staying in doors on a settee in front of the telly is not me at all, but I felt lifeless as though I had a bad bout of flue.
Ray went shopping with a big list and he came straight back as the queue into Tesco car park was half a mile long, we don’t shop on a Sunday normally so never knew it got that busy.
So I had mashed Potatoe, Cauliflower, Gravy and Sausage and it was delicious (its a case of waiting to see what I fancy at that moment)
He is really coming up with some great cooking (men do surprise at times don’t they.)
Right I’m nattering away so I will sign off and see what sort of a day today will bring have a good day everyone –I want to.
