Ray painted the Irish cottage for me--to give to my friend Catherine when we go to Ireland, I cant trust it in the post so I will have to deliver it personally now!!
He has put me in there stting on the left.!
It was very wet all morning and the flooding (the worse for 1000 years) was on the dinnertime news, Cumbria has really been hit hard.
It was a day just to do house work and sit reading or watch TV as Ray changed all the den around--he is getting as bad as me for moving the furniture here,there and everywhere.
I realized that I'm in a funny mood as the TV has adverts for Christmas and all the lovely music that accompanies these adverts are getting to me.
I love this time of year, buying Presents and hiding them after really trying to find the right thing for the right person.
I know I'm getting very tearful.
My mind is working overtime and I have this feeling of it might be my last Christmas.
I think I have been too brave for everyone that Christmas is breaking me down and I'm beginning to think of myself at last.
What I want,what I need.
If this thyroid turns out to be cancer it wont have anything to do with Asbestos, then have I been lucky that they have found it early??
How much have I got to put up with? How much can I take?
Forgive me if for once I begin to ask these things.
I have been made out to be so brave and really underneath I'm a scared lady.
A vase of spring flowers
My Younger brother did a great thing and that was to give me a present on Wednesday of a box of bulbs --I will plant these tomorrow if it is dry and fight to see them flower in spring.
Well that's enough of feeling sorry for myself as the song goes --Pick yourself up and start all over again-- that's what I will do xx
We walked the dog when the rain stopped finally and I enjoyed the freshness after the rain.
There was an unusual red sky tonight very vivid red and so maybe tomorrow will be a nice day --we can only hope.
I made a curry and baked apple with honey and raisins and sat down --real comfort food he!
Well that's all I have to say today so it will be bed early tonight and a new day begins tomorrow.
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Hi locovan - your apple thing sounds delicious!
Know what you mean about Xmas - I remember last year (first after diagnosis) thinking 'will I still be here next xmas? and so far, so good. I guess it's only natural to think these sort of thoughts.
Hello Mavis, we haven`t `spoken` before but I just wanted to say what a beautiful painting Ray has done for your friend:)
This time of year always makes me sad and I think its so hard for any of us who have lost loved ones and for those who are ill or undergoing treatments. I remember my sister saying that christmas 2004 would be her last one, but thankfully it wasn`t..
You take care and be gentle with yourself..you sound like a strong lady:) and having a cry now and again and talking over our fears makes way for renewed strength..well thats how I feel anyway.
You apples sound delicious by the way, and like you say real comfort food.
Yes he is clever and he has made it special by putting me sitting there she has seen it on my blog rayandmave.wordpress.com and is over the moon with it.
We will deliver it to Ireland in May --see Im making plans for next year.
Its all be such a hard year as this time last year I was planning our trip of 3 months in Jan in spain in our M/H and then when we got back it has been nothing but hopitals and now chemo.
