on monday the 13th of july, its my 30th anniversary.
its the first date on my bucket list, doing good and feeling proud of myself for reaching it we didnt think i would.
as some of you know my darling husband dave works in the states, and he has been acting a bit strange for a while, i thought it was the pressure of working away under our circumstances, its only natural.
after much coaxing and pleading he finally told me what is wrong........ he has had surgery... to remove pre cancerous polops from his bowels!!! he kept it from me because he could.... not living in the same country and all, now dave is not good at telling lies, hes the most honest person i know, which is why i knew something was wrong, but he kept making excuses, which is also not like him, my mum says he is our own simon cowel
he had blood in his stool last july and i told him to go to the doc, he did and they done tests, and he told me they were ok,. he had his surgery 3 months ago,he has kept this terrible secret for a whole year, and the reason ..... because he said i had enough to deal with......
i love this man more than life itself and just thinking of him going through all that on his own while worrying about me too breaks my heart.
the docs have told him he will get more and they could become bowel cancer,i am gutted, i am in shock
luck of the irish not for me
chances of getting breast cancer under the age of 45--- 5% i did
chances of getting my type of breast cancer 5% i did
chances of getting 2 primarys 5% i did
chances of both of my daughter`s parents getting cancer????? i dont know
my daughter is six months pregnant, with our first grandchild, how can she bear the pain?
for those of you who know me in chat... now you know why i havent been around much lately, i am usually such an optimist, but can it get any worse??? if the chances are 5% then yes they can.
thanks for letting me rant, i will bounce back soon, just not today,
i love all you guys and you keep me going. thanks. liz xxx
