this is my first time doing a blog, but today i was at my friends sisters funeral,strangely enough after my brothers in september i thought the next would be mine, so although i really didn`t want to go and i knew everyone would understand, ihad to pay my respects. (my husband says we irish are a nation of funeral goers, he`s english),any way i knew it would be hard, but i didn`t know it would make me feel selfish,because although i was feeling sorrow for all my friends family i was also thinking, this will be me in there, this will be my family, and the worst was seeing louise`s husband, he was in such a state,i had to leave the wake,because i know my husband will find it hard to cope,as will my daughter and extended family. i was crying as much for my family as for my friends family. it was different with my brother as we were all grieving for him and me we all know that,but today was a bit too raw, and i am usually a very strong person, so i suppose when i realised that i mostly was upset for me and my family i was a bit angry at myself cos i really don`t think i am normally a selfish person,anyway got it off my chest now and tommow IS another day
liz
FormerMember
Just reading youre blog and you really are going through a hard time and going to funerals and thinking of youre own illness aswell. Youre husbands right by the way us Irish love our funerals I live in Dublin and theres always plenty. Youre a very strong woman to have got through youre first lot of chemo and now going onto youre next lot which must be taking it out of you. You have youre family to love and care for you and will get you through this like i am getting my husband through all this and with 3 young kids aswell. Keep strong and good luck with youre treatment. Big Hugs Pink.xxxxxx
thanks,just having a bad day yeaterday, you must be strong yourself coping with your husbands cancer and 3 young kids,in that respect i am lucky, my daughter is grown and married an expecting her first child in sept, thanks for taking the time and kind words, good luck pink xx
marble, this is the one place you never have to apologise, we all feel sorry for ourselves, especially early after dx, you, like everyone else here, are going through your own private hell, hope you get through all you have ahead as easily as possible, and come back here often, as this is the place for comfort, information, and even a bit of a laugh to diatract us in our darker moments.as i was told, when i first joined this site. welcome to the club no one wants to join, but you`ll be glad you did.good luck, liz x
