in god, for quite a number of years i considered myself agnostic, fence sitter as far as god is concerned, i want to believe but there are so many bad things in this life that i think if there is a god he must be a cruel one. i`m not just talking about personal, but the world as a whole, so after being told i had 3 to four months to live last march i did think about it again, and still of the same opinion, then at my step brothers funeral last sept i was talking to my church going, christian brother and told him how i felt and this made him sad, he told me to ask for a sign, which i did the same night so, ok no sign. today driving home from our mothers usual sunday morning visit,we passed a church,the bells were ringing, our joan said i love the sound of church bells,so do i says me and beatrice laughed, sure you two don`t believe in god says she, but i was thinking of starting to go. so was i said me and jo in unison,i told them of the chat with alex, and they said well this is your sign,i said i had been thinking that the church at the bottom of my street might be a good place for my funeral and that it might be good if the minister actually knew me, but i was stiil a bit dubious,then beatrice turned on the radio and the first lines of the song were,` i prayed`.( sorry nearly finished) so we talked and when i got home i walked the dog and stopped at the church to get the service times, i think i brought the dog so i wouldn`t have to go in,so the service was in full swing, there`s another at 7 tonight but i think i`ll do it next week, i need to syke myself up for it, so wish me luck guys,lets hope i get convinced. thanks for listening. liz xxx
I have to say, I think of myself as quite a spiritual person, we always went to church when I was little so God has always been in my life. I'm not overly religious don't get me wrong but I do believe in God. When I first got sick I lost my faith and it has taken a long time for me to get it back. The truth is, I get through the trials that this disease throws at me by believing that whatever happens, I will see my loved ones again. That this life is just one chapter of my story and so really I'm still at the beginning.
When I lost my faith I kept asking for a sign...anything to show me that God did exist. My sign came from my daughter, she said what do you want mum, do you want God to perform a miracle...because that would be easy...but it isn't faith is it? Faith is believing without needing to see a miracle, even though they do happen it's just knowing that something IS. She is right of course, I just need to have faith that it doesn't just all end and whether I'm right or wrong, I don't really care, my faith comforts me and it gives me peace and that is all that matters.
I hope you do go to your Church service, if nothing else it is an extra support system and we know we need all the support we can get.
thanks indie, ok you might not believe this, but i just jumped into the car to go get something from the salon and the radio was playing say a little prayer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you know that one,. the moment i wake up, before i put on my make up i say a little prayer for you.............. spooky or what.liz xxx
This bit of info isnt about god, but just before I went in for surgery to remove my tumour I went for a walk with my husband, eldest sister and my wonderful pooch Belle. We walked alonside a lake and there were patches of clover. I dont know why, but I have always been able to find four leaf clovers even as a child I could find them .When I met my husband I told him about this and he said Ive never seen one I dont believe you, so that day we set too in a field near my house and I soon found one. Anyway sorry to babble, getting back to our walk, we were all in a state as the surgery was major and there was a chance that I would not pull through. Paul said ok then Ruth I challenge you to find a four leaf clover, so after about ten minutes I found one, Paul had said to my sister you watch it wont take her long and it didnt. When we got back to the car it was chris evans on the radio talking about four leaf clovers! when I came round in icu after surgery Paul was sat there with the four leaf clover!
I dont know if I believe in God, but I do believe in something, my sister is a Johavahs Witness and has told me why things happen, alot of what she says makes sense, but I believe in evolution so Im confused. Take care Ruth
Dear Ruth, I hope you give the church you mentioned a try, you may find comfort and support there, and I sincerely pray you will. I have a strong faith, R.C, though over the years I've become a bit of a 'pick and mix' Christian I'm cetain that God doesn't agree with 75% of the stuff that is spouted in His name. I know that a lot of agnostic's will have a wonderful suprise when they awake in heaven, (what ever heaven is) I don't beleive that hell is a place where we have to sit on a red hot griddle without our knickers on for eternity. To me it is the thought of never seeing God's face, that would be Hell to me. Ruth if your a good person and are sorry for any wrong you may have done God will welcome you, remember Our Lord sinned too. If we were perfect we would still be in Heaven, never have been born. I hope my thoughts are of some help to you. God Bless you, Linda
