Waiting For Results Is The Worst

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Since my last blog post, we have had a couple of developments I'd like to share. 

Terry's limp/knee pain continues to come and go . . . and the results of his bone density test DID reveal some troubling osteopenia he is now supposed to take care of by doubling up on his Vitamin D and consume 1,200 mg of calcium a day.  They suggested supplements, but we decided to try and get that in him with nutritional changes, rather than add 1,200 mg of calcium in the form of a supplement, in addition to the calcium he ingests by eating cheese, drinking milk etc.  It is our understanding that anyone who has had kidney issues, as he has, should not "load up" with calcium, as it is hard on a person's kidneys. 

So there's that . . . and I am of the opinion that any bone thinning a man his age may have, is only accelerated by all the steroids he took last year.  Just one of the things, I understand, that can happen.  AGAIN, the RCHOP therapy wasn't a choice . . . it HAD to be done.  So, we are not second-guessing that treatment in the least. 

We were able to get him his MRI of his knee yesterday, rather than having to wait until December 2nd.  They had a cancellation, so we were glad he could have it done sooner, rather than later. 

BUT, of course, we are now in a holding pattern, waiting for the results.  The waiting, waiting, waiting is something I've always found difficult . . . for anything . . . good OR bad. 

I likened it today to standing on a platform gate in front of the world's largest rollercoaster . . . watching it go up and down, up and down.  It is a rollercoaster I have boarded in the past, letting my hopes build . . . . only to have them come crashing down with not so great news.  So, this time, after dealing with the scariest beast there is (CANCER), I have decided to just let the dang thing go up and down without me.  I now find it wiser to stand on that platform, on level ground (somewhere in between), and wait for information.  After finally braving the discussion I dreaded through Terry's ordeal, explaining how deeply I have been affected by them and his past serious illnesses . . . and he seemingly being able to finally understand my place in all this . . . we are standing on that platform, together . . . holding hands . . . neither of us allowing ourselves to go very far "upward" or very far "downward". 

So we wait . . .

Will try and post something as soon as we find out what we're dealing with . . . something "not so serious" or more of the "beast's" pain thrown at us. 

Hope all is well with whomever has taken an interest in me and our challenges. 

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