Well, it been over 3 months since i lost my Mum, and i am waiting for it to get better! I have been having a few more better days than sad days but am so very frustrated that i can't be strong and i can be fine one minute then bawling the next.
Driving is worse, when my mind is clear and then i start thinking and crying. And fantasising that if i just drive past her house she will be sat in the window doing her bit for neighbourhood watch as she liked to say.
I have so many questions in my head, about her treatment?why did they miss the additional kidney cancer? why did they miss the perforated bowel at the chemo clinic? why we were never told that without treatment she only had 3 months to live, did she know?
I am a wreck and am fed up of it!
