I’ve huffed and puffed a bit and I’m back on square two

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It’s funny peculiar, putting one’s thoughts down in a blog releases pent up emotions, and helps one realise those problems aren’t that bad after all, especially when there are others who have different but related tales to tell.

It it weren’t for Little My reminding me that I’m not the one who has the cancer, I could have sunk down into a deeper self pity. It it weren’t for Margaret853 reminding me I’m not alone in despising the Daily Mail’s actions (though my fellow workers seem to be immune to it, of whom does that say more?) and Carol reminding me MPs used to be only just higher life forms than Estate Agents.

To you, for giving me hugs or kicks up the bum or laughs or encouragement or any combination as appropriate, I say thank you.

To the silent majority (I am vain enough to believe there must be at least four others out there reading my pearls of wisdom) to the silent majority I say, I know I have your attention too, but sometimes it is hard to find the right words to respond, or maybe you too are feeling like that and can’t find your way out.

To you trapped in the labyrinth, I urge you to get your own Little Mys and Margartet853s and carolabs and pour out your feelings. You are not alone. Not even when it feels so empty and lonely in your home, because somewhere, sometime, someone could be reading your words and feeling for you or even responding or lost for words. There is more good in the world than bad, though there are times it barely seems credible.

Not every skinhead is a neo-Nazi, not every Muslim is a terrorist waiting to destroy you, not even every MP is a total idiot and waste of space, and apart from Dennis (the Beast of Bolsover) Skinner, I must be honest, I am hard pressed to find any who are ‘old school’ backbenchers and members of the awkward brigade.

Not every silent voice is a voice that doesn’t understand or empathise. I know only too well since there are postings I cannot respond to. Perhaps it is because the content leaves me stunned, or the events are too close to home for me still, or maybe I have nothing useful to say or add. If such scenarios exist for me, it must be worse for those who, for whatever reason, can only be bystanders. We bloggers and posters need to articulate as best we can, for them. Who knows, maybe a phrase or a sentence may speak to them and encourage them to (re)act?

Note to self. Tim, try to remember not everybody is like you, poor things.


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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Well said Tim, Thank you Mushtyx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Tim,

    I am blushing a little and I did not mean to give you a kick up the backside or a reminder in that sense, of I have cancer and you don't ner ner (oh that made me laugh, sorry)  just an empathy of life is shit as it were. We both have had times to face that what do we do? well, might as well live. Yours is as strong if not stronger than mine.

    Anyway, if I made you laugh or helped you, then that is wonderful.

    It is so hard to know what to say sometimes and I deleted some paragraphs and rewrote others a few times before I sent my reply so I can imagine lots of people just not knowing what to say. I often struggle to answer someone and some posts I leave alone and hope someone else has the words I don't for them.

    I used to blog- Bummer..! (bad sense of humour for anal cancer) and I always wondered who was out the back reading and not saying. I did ask people just to say Hi once so I knew who was out there. I got a few more replies but not all that were reading it I know as some later said hello and I guess some never did.

    It meant so much to me at the time to get a response from people, even if it was a 'big hug' which sometimes is about all you can say to people and I remember that and when someone writes and gets no replies, it is hard. You give something of yourself and then wait for a response.

    So, yes, well said. And do reply to Tim if you are reading this. It doesn't half help. even if it is just I read it, I am here I don't know what to say but I read it  or Big hug or send me a lentil recipe or whatever.

    And lastly, Tim, I would rather have cancer than be the one watching my loved one have it any day. I think you have it worse and I can stop myself getting into self pity by thinking I could be in your position!  So somehow we can all help each other in our awfulness. Hmm I guess that is the joy of Mac.

    Rambling again. Thank goodness everyone is not like me. We would use up all the words.

    LM x

     

     

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Tim,

    Well LM, if we use up all the words let's hope we use them as wisely as you.

    OK Tim, yes I am reading but not often commenting.

    I have seen cancer from both sides of the fence having lost my wife some 26 years ago. I can agree with LM it is better to have it than to watch a loved one cope with it; so often I felt helpless as my wife had to make those difficult and personal decisions. When she made the decision to have no more treatment I was heart broken.

    With my own cancer I felt either in control or in safe hands.

    I don't often post in these carer groups because it brings back unhappy memories of a battle lost, so please excuse me. But it is good to read of the progress of people who are fighting their way back to life.

    We are all with you Tim, every step of the way and we are glad of people like LM and Margaret for providing that more visible support we all need.

    Good luck on your journey,

    Colin

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Tim, glad to read you're back on square two. I don't blog - maybe I should start? - but I do use the forum extensively, and I do agree that the opportunity to "get it all out there" in some shape or form helps so much.  Keep on using up the words; it helps so many; both the commentators, and those who just read and feel not quite so alone xx

  • Very well said, Tim.

     I would question your comment that MPs are higher life forms than estate agents. Estate agents we only need at certain times, MPs are always with us so I will stop being a spoilsport and let you beat up more than one. Any takers out there to help him????

    I notice you did not comment on the chocolate issue. I wont believe you if you say you did not bring any back from Venice and I know you still have a stash of Lindt 90%

    Keep the dice rolling and you will reach the top before you know it with a half full glass in your hand.

    Little My said something that will strike a chord in lots of hearts. She said she would rather be a cancer sufferer than watch someone suffering. My Frank always said he was glad it was him and not me going through it but like most carers I would have changed places in a nanosecond. Cancer is shit but in some strange way it brings out the best in people.

    Carol