1 more day and i will be able to bring kye home for the very last time.its is funeral on wednesday im dreading it, because i will never c him again. the past 6 weeks have been a living hell from been told my 11 week old baby has cancer to him passing away last week. god i miss him so much my house is so empty.i have no tears left to cry. i cant understand y god woulld give me something so buetifull and then take him away from me.i suppose everything happens for a reason.for weeks i have searched the web to find anyone in a simular position as me and there isnt anyone iv found. my friends dont like talking bout kye it upsets them 2 much. i just want to talk to peaple and tell them how happy and gratefull i am happy that kyes gone and not in any pain and gratefull i got to spend 16weeks with him some people dont get that time.people want me to be crying all time and talk bout sad things, and because im not they ll think im in some sort of shock . truth is i have no sad things to say .yeah i love him and miss him dearly but im also in a sense glad hes in heaven because i seen him in unbearable pain hooked up to ventalaters and i didnt want him suffering i suppose i got my wish.
FormerMember
I don't know what to say but there is a reason for eveything. We may never know what it is. My heart goes out to you. Stay strong.
