its funny how selfish we can be sometimes.
last night i was depressed (its something i battle with, lost my ma to it) about school, life, money, everything--texting my fiance whos in a different state..and he texts me back that his father has melanoma.
i tried to tell him everything i've learned in medical school thus far, trying to remain optimistic--
then he tells me today it is stage 4.
this past year i've lost my mom, he lost his graddad, now this? i'm not sure what god is trying to do to the people around me but it sucks. its not me who's sick, but this man has treated me like his daughter, and now im stupid thoughts of --will he be around if we get married? how much time do we have, and how do i help my fiance thru this?
do i even have the right to say anything..? do i even have a right to cry or ?
i guess ill find out more tonight, but it sucks being so far away i can't do anything, only offer a few words by phone or email..
and all this time i have been so selfish wth my own problems. which are nothing, compared to this.
